responsibility and such

I'm not exactly a responsible adult. I still live at home and I can't seem to keep a simple job. But it doesn't mean i'm not trying to find a 40 hour a week job and eventually save enough money to move out to California with my Aunt.

But compared to how many woman and men are having sex these days without a care about pregnancy, or even STD's and simple things like UTI's, apparently i have responsible adult tendencies. I realize how hard it will be when you have to care for a child. Many women think having a baby will be some sort of entertainment. That having one will be fun.

I'm very thankful when i realize how SMART i am. And how smart i am when i have sex! I know that right now i'm too young to have to take on the responsibility of a baby. and that i'm not even married! When i get pregnant..i want to be able to depend on the fact that my husband will stick around. Of all the people (and its a lot.) none of the boyfriends have really stuck around OR they've only gone out for a couple months. And don't get me wrong...i know pregnancy can happen on accident! But if you're going to take on something serious like sex...at least try everything in your power to prevent pregnancy and diseases.

I have two people i know and have in mind when i say the above. (about the entertainment of a baby.) My then 16 year old cousin is an example. Who got pregnant at 16 and had her baby at 17. Which the baby is the direct result of the irresponsibility of having sex without using a condom and "pulling out." which, i've noticed..that a lot of girls think that actually works. When really..think about it--there's a thing called semen and a thing called "pre-cum." Penis' are just like vagina's. They get wet. The only difference is penis' can get a girl pregnant if not used carefully.

I love all the people who are having babies---Shannan, Mich, Autumn. and the people who have already had babies---Natalie and Samantha. And i'm excited for them. Even though the initial shock had me sad and dissapointed. But eventually...just like shock does...it wore off. And i'm happy and excited. And i don't judge them. Not at all. Life happens. i just wish...they had been more careful.

http://www.thenation.com/doc/20080121/pollitt