i have no words
poems are useless
sleep is my reality

dreams are better than life

This poem is for you
The girl who cries
Harder than her soul can manage
This poem is for you too

You are brave
You are strong

Those words mean nothing
unless you believe them
Feel them
Say them
You'll wonder how you couldn't see

You are brave
You are strong

Say goodbye.
You'll manage.

I've been abandoned
Perching on my tongue
Are bitter words

I haven't had a chance to say.


You are guilty of abandonment
Of leaving me in the cold
Your use
Is so much more important
Your disease
Is so much more important

I consule my thoughts, my aching soul
My rejected heart
That you're using again
I consule my ego with thoughts of you abusing substances
Instead of thoughts that I wasn't good enough

Pretty enough.

Selfishly it makes me feel better
Thinking of you being dirty again
Rather than you leaving me
Because I'm ugly.