i'm alone. i'm lonely.
i'll always be alone. i'll always be lonely.
i know i'm okay with being single. when you are watching everyone around you pair up though, your thoughts start to change, and its kinda scary.

I KNNNOW i'm okay with being single. its kind of like drugs---you see everyone experimenting and having fun, you start to wonder what its like, and you want to try it too.
i just have to say no.

god. i'm so tired of fighting this feeling.
i know if i open myself up to wanting a boyfriend---i'll hurt more then ever...because its not like i'm going to get a boyfriend any time soon.
and the thought of a boyfriend scares me anyway.

i'm so conflicted its FUCKING RIDICULOUS.
*sigh*
wow. i just need to stop thinking about this for a while.
i just need to let it go.
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i'm going back to school in the fall. i pray to God i get a good grade. i'm hoping for a B.
anyway.