i'm leaving for california

i'm moving to california. finally. after 4 years of wanting to go.

i'm excited. but just like fear does...it has me hesitant. i don't know why. i guess because there are going to be so many things i'm going to miss when i go. Michaline's baby will be born and i want to be Aunt Kristen. and i won't really get that chance. I'm not leaving until september. so i'll get a chance to be there for the birth.

i just keep repeating to myself that its life.
its life.
its life.
its life.
its life.
its life.
its life.
its life.

and i'm going. i'm not chickening out. i've been waiting for so many years to go. if i go back and read entries in my other journal...from way back in the day. i'd find huge entries dedicated to talking about going to California.

i think i deserve a chance to have my life officially start. and i think this would be a great start. i think this would be the best opportunity for me.