but you know. it really does ruin lives. I've known Bart for 13 years now. and half of that time he's done drugs. and he's been in rehab about a handful of times too. Its really sad. I love bart. I've lived down the street from him for 12 years. and i never give up hope on(for) him. But the past couple times of his being sober and then wasted again..its just starting to get old. and i'm starting to just not care anymore what he does. The last time i thought he was sober (which..i had an inkling that he wasn't. i just know him) he said he was only smoking pot. but i've seen that pot leads to other things. You just get bored with the same old high. and when you get bored---you find other things to make you feel better and entertained. i took psychology class...i know this. Well...Bart is proof positive of this theory. damn. i'm sick of it. When i saw him in the mall a few weeks ago..i knew. I KNEW---that something just wasn't right. and then word of mouth throughout the neighborhood finalized my suspicions. I'll always love Bart...but...i just can't take watching his life disintegrate anymore.
anyway. Josh is coming over soon and i think we're going to go see a movie. I wish there was more to do other than just a stupid movie. I need to go shopping...which i know wouldn't bother him. I guess i'll just do that. I have to get something for Autumn's babyshower. Goodness...i can't believe she's having a baby.
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