this is the future

its so funny to me that i can see hundreds of guys in the span of days, weeks, months, etc and only every so often i'll get butterflies for one guy.

i think the last time i got butterflies for someone is was months ago. and it just happened with some guy on flickr. lame...i know. but i was attracted to him. its weird. its like---whats different from these guys i get butterflies for then from the guys that i think are cute? you know? i don't see anything special with this guy..he could be a guy from wal-mart i'd see. but i guarantee if i look at this picture in a month or two--i'll still have the same feeling in my stomach. http://www.flickr.com/photos/douchebomb/2267251489/
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sometimes i'll have a random thought..of what my future husband (if i get married) is doing RIGHT that second. while i'm driving or doing the dishes or cleaning or anything.
i don't always think about it. it'll just be a random thought that hits me every once in a while. its kind of an interesting thought. makes me even more curious though. like---what is he doing right now? while i'm typing this. is he sleeping? because he's in a different time zone? or is it early morning and he just woke up? or is he in a dorm at school...or is he at a party right now with all of his friends. or could he be at work? or could he be sick? could he be angry? happy? sad? ecstatic about something? worried?

its just a curious thought and its fun to ponder about. i think i'll probably be thinking about it more often now that i've written this entry. and its permanatly etched in my mind..not just a random thought anymore.