if there's a story
i'll tell it


stars were our shelter
that corner lot
was our outlet

your kiss
was like the earth tilted
and tumbled back

faster than a second
but slower than a minute

you have been the only one
to speed up time
and slow it down
when your lips were on mine

God, that was so long ago
shouldn't i be thinking other things
sometimes you cross my mind

the pain is in my heart
for good, i guess
even when i see you now
see how bad you're doing
i see a boy

a boy who treated me badly
but i fell in love with anyway
a boy who was worthless
but was my whole world
i should have never let you

i should have never let you hold my hand
kiss me, or hug me
or tell me i was beautiful
with your hand resting on my chin
bringing my eyes to your's
kissing my lips
on the hot summer moon-lit path
i still think of those moments
wishing i was 17 again
you were nothing good
my 23 year old heart knows that


i saw you again the other night
it had been 4 years
your beard was gnarly, outgrown
your gut hung over your belt

i saw the boy underneath
my palms were sweaty
just like how they used to get
when i'd see you
standing outside in my driveway
waiting for me to come out

6 years later and you still do the same shit to me
you bastard
why don't i get some control?
i was longing for your arms to be around me
for you to speak to me
..

vivid memories still haunt me
i'll find someone someday
who will actually treat me well
who will prefer me to be their wife
instead of a convenience.